Previously On Martinez Yoga…
You say it’s your birthday! It’s my birthday too! January 28, 1970. Aquarius. Could you tell? Air sign. I’m floating around in the sky, and I love it. Wouldn’t have it any other way. Other Aquarians: Oprah Winfrey. David Lynch. Gertrude Stein. George Burns. Rick James. Lana Turner. Too much to handle, huh? Me and my dad share a bday. He was born on January 28, 1934. I was his bday present.
My dad passed almost nineteen years ago of a heart attack. Even though it’s not as sad, depressing, and shocking as it was years ago, it’s around this time of year that something clicks inside of me, and makes me think of him often. It’s not to say that I don’t think of him at all, but it’s been almost two decades that I haven’t had him in my life, and sometimes it feels as if I never had a father. It’s weird. I know that I did, but when he unexpectedly died, my life dramatically changed, and fast.
Now, some of you may be thinking, “What does this have to do with Yoga?” Buena pregunta. Good question. This past week in my classes as my bday was approaching, I was scanning the room as normal, and these questions just came to me: What does it feel like to feel the feeling of breathing? What does it feel like to feel the feeling of moving? What does it feel like to feel the feeling of being alive? My questioning is a mirror that I use to encourage my students to gaze inward as we practice. When I question, I’m not looking for or expect an answer, but I do see some form of a response as the practice goes to a deeper layer, which is reflected in the physical body of the students. I can see it. I can feel it. Words and the intellectual mind really don’t describe what I see and feel. I do all that I can do to be there and be present for my students, and to encourage them to experience intimacy and self-awareness of and with their Yoga.
As Pat Benatar said in 1981, “Life is too short. So, why waste precious time?”
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